When the Struggle is Real

 I struggle with sin. Yes, I do! The girl that grew up in a wonderful Christian family. The woman who volunteers with three Christian organizations, and has been a Christian for 12 years.
 I still battle the struggle; the agony, the soul-crushing, strength-sapping desire to live fully for the Lord. Yet, at the same time,  I am driven  to fulfill the longings of my evil desires. A battle rages within: to obey or not. “Does it even matter?” I demand out loud as the image of the sin flashes within my mind.
We have all been there. The moment where all time stands still, as though holding it’s breath waiting to see how a Christian answers in the battle of sin.
The Bible does directly address the problem of sin in a Christian’s life.
1. Let us lay a foundation for sin. The Bible clearly states that all have sinned. Not 50%, or even 75%. ALL! 100% of us have fallen from God’s perfect law. “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)
2. The Bible also promises that if we confess our sin as being wrong  and turn from our evilness, then HE WILL forgive us. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9) 
Friend, I can imagine your thoughts at this moment. “Yes, Eliza, I know. I grew up hearing these words. Weren’t those verses for nonbelievers? Were they not for those people wanting to be saved? I have asked for forgiveness, find myself sinning over and over.”
Dear Friend, 1 John 1:9 was not written to unbelievers, and I find that encouraging. It was written to believers by the apostle John. Secondly, I think that we should discuss the difference between Christians who sin and nonbelievers who sin. The difference is not that one group sins and the other doesn’t. The change is when they sin. A person who has the spirit of God within them is grieved by their sins. They will continue to attempt to break free from the cycle that they live in. The Christian is not content to live in sin. (Proverbs 24:16)
On the other hand, a nonbeliever does not have any fear of God and His wrath. (Romans 8:13) A non-christian will not repent of their sin. They will instead cling to their sin, not wanting to change.
Friend, when sin knocks on your door, “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” (James 4:7) Yet, if you fail, which you will, may this encourage you: “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)
I wanted to leave you with this verse of encouragement, “Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.” (1 Timothy 6:12)
Keep fighting, girl, and know that Jesus isn’t letting go of you.

Why I Write

Growing up a simple child, many creations had formed within my mind. I would much rather be playing in my room, designing new worlds, than to be outside with my older siblings. At the age of 9, I found a place where I could use my words to craft other lands. When I wrote, I found my voice within.

Lately, I have been contemplating why I should write. Because if there isn’t any use behind it, then why do it? Why do Christian authors spend hours upon hours typing, then deleting and rewriting words?

Honestly, I don’t know the answer to all those questions. However, I do know the why behind my writing.

  1. God is a Writer.

He made the choice to preserve history and His law in writing. Not in artwork or in a film, but within a book. In writings inspired by His Spirit. I know that in the Bible times, they couldn’t film or such. However, God, who could save anything in any way that He wished, decided to do so through the human use of written words.

  1. Jesus calls Himself the Word of God.

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” (John 1:1, ESV) For some reason, though I don’t claim to know why, God made the choice to be a word.

  1. Words have an amazing power to build up or tear down.

“So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! 6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life,and set on fire by hell, 7 For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, 8 but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. 10 From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so.” (James 3:5-10, ESV) Brothers and Sisters, let us write unto our King and to build up others.

This is why I write; I write to inspire. I write to encourage. I write to inspire others. I write to build others up, and I  pray that I write to spread His Word.